What's missing?

I feel like something's missing.
The problem with getting what you want is that it's never what you really want. Often I will make the mistake of thinking that I will be happy if I can just get this, achieve that, do this other thing I never have time for. But when I do receive/ accomplish/ do the activity I wanted I discover that I am no closer to being happy than I was to begin with.
I guess the key is to be happy now, no matter what is going on. Or, (I don't like where this is taking me) what am I basing my happiness on to begin with? (I'm sure that you were already thinking this.) Is my happiness rooted in Christ? In the fact that God loves me, has redeemed me, cherishes me as a favored son? Obviously not.
Guess I know what's missing, gratitude. Thankfulness. An awareness of just how much God loves me and what he saved me from. I am realizing that I have been holding the death of Christ cheaply, taken the blood of the lamb for granted. In doing this I opened the door to greed, ingratitude, and a self-centered world view.
I need to remember the cross, and all that it means for me and for the world.

Concerning difficulty

"When meeting calamities or difficult situations, it is not enough to simply say that one is not flustered. When meeting difficult situations, one should dash forward bravely and with joy."- Yamamoto Tsunetomo.
If the ancient samurai were expected to live this out, how much more should we as Christians, who have the assurance of Christ being with us walk this put in our own lives!