Praying for checkmate

We often want to change, but we make excuses as to why we can't or won't take the steps necessary to make that change a reality. I try to play chess with God, to get out his will for my life. Even as things get harder, and I am less satisfied with where I am at, I would rather keep trying to win, get my own way than submit. So I am going to pray that God beats me, puts me in checkmate, gives me nowhere else to run but to him. For it's only in his arms that I am going to be truly happy and safe.